Well Abe and I want to say hello to all!
We have been super busy the past three months. This last semester of school was crazy. Abe had two classes that were at night, and I was at school almost every day from 9 to 3. Then we had work at night. It was a busy semester, but a lot of fun. I was able to make lesson plans for the children's school at WSU. Abe is finished with his minor in ESL. I graduate in December! Finally! I am also doing student teaching in the fall. I am very excited! I will be student teaching at Weber State's children's school. I will be student teaching the preschool class. It is going to be so fun. I am very excited! We are so glad it is summer break. We can actually relax and have dinner together.
Abe got a summer job at a place called Focus. They do inbound customer service calls for CenturyLink and Direct TV. He has been in training for the past week. He says it seems like a good job and he has been enjoying himself. He plays ping pong with everyone there and has one every game except one. He is very proud of himself haha :-) I had found a job at a daycare, but it was at a Methodist church, and they were trying to get me to sign things that said I recognize that theirs is the true church, and I believe that the LDS church is the true church, so I decided to stop pursuing that job. I felt very uncomfortable there, but they were very nice people and I respect them! So now I am on a job hunt. Finding a place to work where they do not make you work on Sundays is extremely difficult here. So I have been able to apply to one place, that is Seagull Book. I am praying I get the open position there so that we can put all of the money I make into savings.
We are still not pregnant. We have officially hit the year mark of trying. I thought I would go to the doctor and because we have hit a year she would say that I am infertile. Thankfully that was not the case. If I do not get pregnant this month then I am going to get what is called an HSG test. It is going to cost us 2/3 of our savings, but we feel like it is the right thing to do. Pretty much they shoot dye into my uterus and fallopian tubes and make sure that my tubes are open and make sure my uterus is not misshapen. I really do not want to pay for or go through testing, but it really looks like I am going to have to and we both really want to get pregnant. Abe and I have decided that test should be done before I take Clomid because there is really no reason for messing with hormones and forcing me to ovulate if my tubes are blocked. So we are preparing for that fertility test. We are praying that everything is fine because we cannot afford to do any surgeries. I really thought I was pregnant last month. I was not having any signs of my period and so I took a pregnancy test on the day I was supposed to start, and it was negative. My period was 4 days late. I am at most 2 days late, so that was really awful. At that point I had lost all hope that I was ever going to get pregnant. I was upset for days. I was really sick of being disappointed every month. I wondered what was wrong with me and why God wouldn't bless us with a baby of our own. I did not feeling like that. Not one bit. I felt bitter and angry. So I decided to just let it go and pray and read my scriptures and find happy thoughts online. Since doing that, I have felt better about the past year. It has been a growing experience and it has taught us a lot about our marriage and our strengths and weaknesses. Abe is so patient and loving. He really is amazing and is always willing to give me a blessing when I am feeling upset and impatient. This is really a trial for me and I am so thankful to have such an amazing husband to help me through this.
We are so happy that its summer! We are going to camp and hike a bit this summer. We hope to make it up to Yellowstone for a weekend. We love all of our family and friends and hope that you all are doing well!
-Amanda and Abraham
Hey Amanda :) So i just thought i'd share with you that me and my husband also went through infertility and I know how all those bitter and angry feelings can be. You question yourself, you get jealous of other people that have families, you get depressed and it consumes your thoughts. It did me anyways. Anyways, after a year plus many months of trying, we are now pregnant. Not without the help of me going through a surgery and both my husband and I doing fertility treatments as well. But, if I could offer some advise to you that I WISH I would have done from the get go, is, find a fertility specialist first. Don't waste your time, energy, money, and emotions on a doctor that wants to just give you some medication and call it good without any testing. I think it's good that they want to do an HSG test. That's a great start. But I personally would have Abe do a semen analysis test as well. 40% of infertility is caused from male factor infertility. So I personally wouldn't hesitate to get that done. Other than those two tests, your good to start with other tests/ treatments and what not. Besides doctor advise, stay close to Abe, lean on each other when things get tough, stay close to God, try to stay positive and have hope that something will work out, even if it's not at all how you imagined it would be. If you ever have any questions or someone to vent to about any of it, feel free to message me any time. :)
ReplyDeleteAmanda! I've been such a bad friend with keeping in touch with you. Thanks for posting these so bad friends like me can still know what's up in your life. I seriously miss you and love being able to see how much you've grown through all of these experiences. You and Abe are both amazing and I love you!
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